She turned to me when she spoke of her eating disorder as an illness based on wanting more control... then I knew she knew.   

We can spot each other... whether currently in the throws of an ED or a former sufferer.   We have a certain sensitivity and antennas that pick up the "type".  You know who you are...

You know exactly, without a doubt which foods are "good" and "bad".

Your pupils dilate in the supermarket as you rush to get your cart of cakes, cookies, and milkshakes to the counter.

You're stressed about nothing in particular, and everything at once.

There's constant friction with your lover/spouse/friend/coworkers.

You are unable to make sense during "high" (manic) times, but you're too busy to notice.

Home/school/work are all problem areas and have been for awhile.

Alcohol exacerbates your ED.

Your panic attacks are debilitating, further isolating you from the very things that could save you... activities, family, friends. 

Now, don't you think you're a little too obvious?  The people that care about you know. 

Learn the tools to mindfulness.  Connect with a trusted hypnotherapist.  Why? Because you want to change your mindset from someone that is being controlled by food to someone that has found how to express her/his creativity and sensitivity, as well as, found an outlet for her/his affection and love of life. 

Mindfulness is the key that not only makes healing possible, but anticipated.